Hey my name is tesha and i am currently an 8th grader. But not just any eigth grader an eigth grader who has had her heart broken. Not jsut like any other heartbreak, but bad heartbreak really bad heartbreak. It started with a typical girl falls for boy routine, I mean we have kind of always had a thing, well since the day we were passing "love notes" in 5th grade, yep that day in front of Mr. Myer's room was amazing. Anyway when I say we I mean me and Alex Kempen. But then something happened I don't know about him but I got this feeling that I haven't got with any other guy, I knew it was love. I spent forever hopeing tbat he liked me to and then when I knew he did we talked back and fourth and flirted all summer. When it came to school we started dating almost right away. My dream was coming true, he made everything better when it came to my family, or any of my problems he made everything better. Then in no time my birthday came up and I was with him all night, my mom even let me sleep over at his house. While me and him were laying together I could almost feel how much he seemed to love me. I can say to this day it was one of the best nights of me life, if I ould go back I would change some things but it was by far one of the best nights ever. Soon morning came and I woke up to him waking up and getting out of bed. So about 30 seconds later I got up. Some of our friends were qquestioning us saying things like
"What did you guys do"? or
" have fun"?
Just things like that it was whatever though, I just blew them off and ignored them for a little bit. It got later into the day and then it happened, the dare that would crush me, forever. There on his table was a huge bottle of his parents vodka. Suddenly after giving it a long stare I was dared to chug the whole thing pure, and it was 3/4 of the way full so you cna only imagine how much that was. SO I did it I chugged it, and everyone's eyes were on me cheering and smiling, I felt really good. But then within about 5 minutes I was really drunk. I mean I have drank vodka, beer, wine coolers every once and a while, but this time something was wrong. It didn't feel right, everything was moving really fast all around me adn my stomach churned. Suddenly I was on his chair by his TV and someone oushed me ovver so I was on the gorund. Finally I was feeling really sick and, yuck, i threw up, that had never happed before either, at least from drinking. Everything was moving so fast when suddenly, I ran to the bathroom and did what I had to do in there, it took a while because I just couldn't stop. Then out of no where everything went black. I woke up to the noise of our friends banging on the door for me to let them in, so i lodged my leg under the door so they couldn't because I didnt want anyone to see me right now. Then smash, they kicked the door in this is where everything goes black again. Again I woke up, but this time to ALex Kemper ( at the time my boyfriend) putting his door back on. I had no idea what was going on becuaae I forgot that the door was even kicked in until I got reminded by the ring of someone voice blaming it on me when i clearly wasn't. I just blew it off and went to lay on his couch I though that maybe if I layed down for a little bit it would ware off some. Suddenly once again everything went black I woke up to being burnt, by "our" friends ciggerete buds. Burns don't really hurt me that much I mean I can feel the heat, but that's about it. Except for the one where they burnt me on my hand right on my vain that one hurt. They still didn't care though in a 5 minute period I asked them about 15 times to stop burning me. Finally theey did after they each got to spit on me. That's when we had to go becaue his parents were coming home, this is also where I went outside.
I walked slowly down the road, alone, for about 1 minute until I was in a feild in front of his house, again I was throwing up, and aside from freaking out from being grossed out,I was scared I didn't know what was happening or what was going to happen. Once again everything went black and I woke up to the sound of skateboards skating down the road it took them about 15 seconds to get to me, I lifted my head to the blazing sun and then they were there saying.
" Alex Kemper broke up with you haha"
At this point in time I was bawling my eyes out. How could he do this to me I know I had made a terrible mistake but, I need him to help me right now. I love him, and he said he loved me to but this isn't love, not in my point of view anyway. I was crushed sitting in the feild cryinf becaue I couldn't get up. Finally one of my friends, being the only other girl that was in that house helped me up. She walked me downtown, and we went to the trails behind the choclate factory. I just wanted to rest so I eneded up sleeping, wellblacking out on a log for awhile. When I woke up to some people coming back there that were actually me friends, they didn't know what to do though but they could tell something was wrong because they were saying I looked messed up, even with my hair up and sunglasses on. Either way I needed to get out of here but then I was interupted by once again blacking out. Then even more people showed this time it was 2 people one I was really close to her name being Mary. They helped me up and walked me to the girl named marie's house, I layed on her couch and once again blacked out. I woke up to the sound of Marie's mother asking me if I had done drugs I replied no, well did you drink I replied yes. She said okay there there, I will get you some water, after giving her lecture anyway. Megan called my mom and she came and got me. When it comes to what happened I really don't remember. All I remember is going to my bed laying down and blacking out again. I woke up the next morning and I was what they call hungover bad. But all I could think about was Alex, and thinking about him and what he did brought me to tears. And to make the rest of this story short my mom was very angry I realized and she grounded me for the rest of the weekend. I honeslty didn't care though considering my heart had been crushed to a pulp. As time passed it was Sunday and I waited for tomarrow, the dreaded day were I would have to see him and all of his friends. Were alright now, he used to strongly dislike me for a long time, when if anyone should be mad it should be me. But I wasn't mad, not at him anyway. He finally got over this, and now were best friends. The only problem is I still love him and when i say love I mena it. I mean I always have but it was deep deep down like a month after we broke up and then when we stared hanging out agian, all the feelings came out again. But hopefully at least we can always stay friends. I love him so much, but I will never let him know it, I just wish he needed me as much as I need him. And that's the story of my biggest heartbreak.
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